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I am on the very pointy horns of an ethical dilemma, and it's consuming so much of my brain right now that I haven't really had the energy to do much posting. Any and all advice welcome.
Which situation would be more spirit-crushing:
A. Getting a job I don't want for an organization I don't trust even though it would pay well and I could go back to school to get that master's in nonprofit management?
B. Keep looking for work with my soul intact but in an economy so frightening I haven't even found anything to apply for in the last four weeks?
(The ideal answer would of course be C. They offer they job to someone else, thus freeing me from the awful responsibility of decision. But as I've been called back for a third interview, this option is becoming unlikely.)
Replies: 8 Confessions
Accept the job, don't sign the "if you leave you have to pay for the classes you take you have to reimburse" papers, and then find another job that doesn't suck your soul? Not a very good option C, and probably not very likely. But, I'm trying.
Cinnamon @ 06/12/2003 05:10 PM CST
This is a terrible dilemma and it makes me wonder about why this position is still open despite hte grim economic conditions you describe. Perhaps you are not the first person to respond to their corporate culture with an attack of the creeps.
elavil @ 06/12/2003 06:26 PM CST
I've been having to take some dirty money myself of late. The thing about dirty money is, it still pays the rent.
Does said un-named organization directly contravene your moral code? Is it for the RNC? Bechtel? Halliburton? If not, I'd say consider it. If it's too painful no one can stop you from quitting, can they? It sucks a lot, I agree, but such is life in Dubya's America.
I won't think less of you, anyway.
Phineas @ 06/12/2003 09:44 PM CST
Take the job. Remind yourself that the ends sometimes justify the means. Enjoy the money and who knows? You may even influence people within the company. At the end of the day, you are going to do what you really want to do, so look on it as a stepping stone.
But, you don't need me to tell you that because you had already decided, right? :)
Good luck and keep the faith!
Larry Lurex @ 06/13/2003 05:10 AM CST
as someone who takes a lot of showers to wash off the work related grim, take the job if it is offered. don't let them pay for the MPA or whatever you are going to go back to school for so you can make a clean break when the time comes.
shechemist @ 06/13/2003 09:32 AM CST
I think there are 2 questions here:
1) Should you work for someone whose principles you hate?
2) Should you take a job you will hate going to every day?
I think the answer to (1) is between you and your principles but the answer to (2) depends on what you think will happen to your body and mind if you have to go every day to a place you can't bear to do things you believe are wrong. Some people are able to put a big distance between themselves and their work and do just fine; others find themselves getting ground down and otherwise going crazy behind such pressures. (I know someone reading this who knows what I mean.) A job worth the temporary sacrifice of principles might not be worth the more serious sacrifice of mental and physical health.
I'm just sayin'.
elavil @ 06/13/2003 09:43 AM CST
Of course, it depends on the price of your soul, doesn't it? I wish that I could sell my soul for less, but I can't force it into a price bracket that it refuses to go. What I mean is that when I try to sell my soul for a job like the one you describe, I do a terrible job at it because I don't believe in what I'm doing. Every moment of the day I loathe whatever it is I'm attempting to do. I wind up botching it, anyway. I hope that's not you, too.
Personally, I'd give it a try.
Charlie @ 06/13/2003 12:39 PM CST
I myself would probably take it if the money was right. I know that I can leave work at work as long as my money needs are met. You could always continue looking for other opportunities...this just might be a bridge in the gap that would relieve the pressure of finding a job and allow you time to hunt for the right situation.
Rita @ 06/14/2003 01:39 PM CST